An onward journey
cultivating seeds of grace
sitting...
surrounded in peace...
Not giving up
pressing onwards
towards your heavenly face.

Who am I?

Who am I?
Who bags for mercy
Who weeps bitter tears
Who doesn't know which way to go
Who am I?
Who knows the right but does the wrong
Who lives a life full of sin
Who can't look you in the eye
Who am I?
Who's afarid to turn to you
Who doesn't know what to do?

Should I give up or move on?

all things come into question
when its you I'm thinking of

Love: This emotion that calms the soul while driving you insane.

Faithfully

Tonight I saw a shooting star
Made me wonder where you are
For years I have been dreaming of you
And I wonder if you’re thinking of me too
In this world of cheap romance
And love that only fades after the dance
They say that I’m a fool to wait for something more
How can I really love someone I’ve never seen before?
But I have longed for true love every day that I have lived
And I know that real love is all about learning how to give
So I pray that God will bring you to me
And I pray you’ll find me waiting faithfully
Faithfully, I am yours
From now until forever
Faithfully, I will write
Write you a love song with my life
Cause this kind of love’s worth waiting for
No matter how long it takes I am yours
Faithfully
Tonight I saw two lovers kiss
Reminded me of my own loneliness
They say that I’m a fool to keep praying for you
How can I give up pleasure for a dream that won’t come true?
But I will keep believing that God still has a plan
And though I cannot see you now, I know that He can
Until I find you, I’ll be waiting faithfully


By: Eric and Leslie Ludy

Please let it be over!!!!!!!

Needing to clear my head
Needing to get away
needing and wanting to turn my back
Will you listen...?
Will you listen if I speak?
Hating what I am
Hating what you are
I'm not forgiving
yet I don't forget
giving up seems the best option
Is it right?
Why do i care?
Then it must be wrong...
I know your not like them
but sometimes i wonder.
I don't know you, yet I don't care
I try to let go...
Was it a mistake
Was I mis-giving
What does it mean?
Why can't I speak
How do I form the words
Am I fooling myself
I keep running from the light to the dark
Wanting to escape...
Will the pain ever subside?
Will I everbr free?
Will I ever claim my territory
Needing to belive...
Needing to guard myself from these tears
Lord help me fight the constant battle.

Uncertain

I hear a cry of terror;
A cry of fear and not of peace.
Now stop and see
Why my eyes are overflowing with tears
No one can comfort me
No one con give me courage
The enemy has conqured
I have nothing left
You're controlling me
You're forever changing me
I feel nothing
You've left me on empty
I want to scream but I have no voice
Everything is mute
I try to outrun you
But you always keep up
I'll never be able to rid myself of you
You're dispised
I'm forever amused
You've kept me hidden to what I truly am

I wonder?

Green grass...Green carpet...
I wonder if our dog knows the difference?