Please let it be over!!!!!!!

Needing to clear my head
Needing to get away
needing and wanting to turn my back
Will you listen...?
Will you listen if I speak?
Hating what I am
Hating what you are
I'm not forgiving
yet I don't forget
giving up seems the best option
Is it right?
Why do i care?
Then it must be wrong...
I know your not like them
but sometimes i wonder.
I don't know you, yet I don't care
I try to let go...
Was it a mistake
Was I mis-giving
What does it mean?
Why can't I speak
How do I form the words
Am I fooling myself
I keep running from the light to the dark
Wanting to escape...
Will the pain ever subside?
Will I everbr free?
Will I ever claim my territory
Needing to belive...
Needing to guard myself from these tears
Lord help me fight the constant battle.